The Emo me is coming back),:

2011-05-17T04:11:00.000-07:00

You asked me is it worth it?

Friends are more important than stead, this is ridiculous.

Even so, i shouldn't bother.

i tell you the source of the problem, what you do is to do again.

nvm. after my o levels, even have time i wont find you, what's the point?

you have time you find friends, i have time i accompany you and still seeing you accompanying friends.

The world is unfair because of people that don't weigh problems and create problems.

In Love is also IN TORTURE.

TORTURE, gives stress.

NVM:D dont bother about me, i also dont give you any attention anymore.

you want it like this, i give you(:

bit by bit(:

let's seeeeeeeeeeeee(:

after o levels, i go out with another phone line. purposely put my other number at home(:

you want be cold - blooded , i will be even worst than that, just try me.

2011-04-20T00:24:00.000-07:00

Oral test:

Some tips: Read slow, fluent, loud with appropriate pauses and pronounce correctly.

Tips for conversation: Firstly repeat the question that has been told to you ( which enables you to store sometime to think), secondly don't get out of the topic and give more illustration with examples ( will be encourage). Finally, don't give examiners the opportunity to hint you and be direct to the topic of conversation.

Do notes at all times, don't panic and calm yourself with deep breath .

Do not listen to dis-encouragements( which attain your confidence level).

BLOGGY(:

Please remind me to apply all this tips!

Guess this year , today I must start a new fresh.

2011-04-08T19:04:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, its time to let go must let go. so what if i hold on? so many people ask me to press on, do you think I can? I am forcing myself to give in every single time, leading to this day where all the accumulated emotions in my heart just erupt all of a sudden. What will you do if you're me? Seeing every single time your beloved one spending time with others and so interested in others, then you don't see that kind of enthusiasm in her when she's with you. Everytime spending time, effort and energy just to hope to balance my time with you, yet everytime you either spend time with guys on phone or sleep. don't even seeing you giving excuses not to meet other guys, yet for me you can cancel most of them. It's not just once not thrice, but more than anyone can expect. so what i sacrifice my freedom just to let you occupy me? what do i acheive in return? I tried so many times to kept my emotions within me, you don't like I will try not to do. Then I don't do what you like, you did what you don't like on me, what is this? Guess this year isn't that wonderful, but it's okay, just move on. No matter what, sacrificing for other's happiness is the most memorable thing. Hope I can overcome my circumtances. Maybe next year will be a better year(: New house , new stage of life in polytechnic and much more. Just stay single, girls will never appreciate the time you spent with them. All they can do is to get other guys to accompany them. Though I love her, I shall grant her what she wished. To be popular, wear very exposed clothes and rot. Sometimes people just don't give any attention to you, cause they think that nothing will happene. Until that day they regret, they will think of me. I gave everyone a chance, sometimes more than a chance. Even so, they just simply doesn't give any concern and live on with rotten faggots. If what I think is wrong, please tell me what's wrong and feel about my feelings before you confront me. What will anyone feels when their stead, on average 2~3 weeks meet once and she/he can meet other guys 2~3 times a week. Your stead can also reply dozens of guys first then you, during your time with stead, your stead just simply don't give any interest on you. Until finish messging other opposite sex? It really hinders me into the hindsight of every single words that have came out of your mouth. You explain but your actions prove me wrong. I love you and protect you, you just ignore. I give you my attention , you flunk it all. There's many more that I shouldn't bring it all up. Matters turn into this point is all my fault, who ask me constantly view from her feelings and now she can just go beyond that of her limits. Goodluck in your studies, enjoy your guys. Every actions there's a consequence. You want be with other guys and wear exposed shirts, be prepared to face reality. My love had turn from caring to annoying on you, so no matter what I did was wrong. Forgive me for being selfish, on granting your wishes , whether is it to have many steads or rot. You are beyond of my control, later your mind lead you on. You'll never think you're wrong , till that day comes. I'm not stupid, almost everyday you talk to guys on phone and to me, you just quickly want to end my call. HAHA(: End of one portion of speech, 20 mins rest to my tuition at 11 AM. WOW! Hope, i can overcome this Emotions and carry on with my studies. GOODBYE , BLOGGY!

2011-01-12T22:48:00.001-08:00

should i change my picture?

2011-01-11T04:44:00.001-08:00

You lied to me over and over again.

doesn't mean i kept silence you can just take advantage of it.

you lied so many things.

about praying, about not talking to guys friends and yet, every time i see your phone was guys~

you wanna break my trust then just do it, i don't mind.

the most i just get hurt anyway.

So what i love you?

I want to give you freedom, but every time you're giving me lies.

2010-11-28T19:06:00.000-08:00

Getting serious!

Roar):

Don't scream.

I'm Sorry.

Forgive me):

2010-11-26T03:09:00.000-08:00

trying to be happy):

2010-11-16T01:06:00.000-08:00

Parents once told me, to get a wife who can help me in my future.

There's many conditions before I even get a wife, because my parents love me too much.

I'm too young, relationship might be too early, but I think it's about both sustaining it.

To be committed to one another and in all kinds of situation one shall be there to encourage and give support.

There's nothing we can do about it, but believing in God.

Chaotic world brings us knowledge as well as destruction to one another, power brings great responsibility.

Many thought speech means actions, that doesn't apply , unless you are an agent or doing sales.

no matter how much you describe , how many words you learn, you ain't able to describe the world fully.

The ever changing world causes upcoming invisible consequences that humans brought up to themselves for comfort.

Faith is what keep me running, if not i wont be able to have such results in life.

Thanks the heavenly Father .

2010-10-11T04:25:00.000-07:00

To be frank , I don't wanna talk to you already.

don't act as if you care about me, when you don't give me any attention.

your things your friends get to know first then me, what so public about you?

you won't understand then the moment you love someone else.

I don't like you tell you your mistakes, but if this is it then just get over with it.

I don't feel like caring, once i care, i get hurt.

before i tell you i am hurt, you say you're hurt.

you think what?

I have been letting you along, do you ever place your views on me?

you will just get carried away, so even i am gone , I'm not gonna affect you in anyways.

2010-09-21T00:31:00.000-07:00

hope after clarifications, there wont be anymore boundaries among us .

feeling better after all those days.

I'm back counselling friends:X

guess I feel like taking care of people.

feel free to console with me(:

2010-09-17T20:23:00.000-07:00

There's useless for me to care, when my heart doesnt give a place of out your heart. I will just wait till the day you wanna break with me.

I won't say anything more from today.

I have decision to give up again, not that i don't cherish , just that you don't bother.

second chance is just another chance for you to ruined it.

you wanna explain, but?

why must i always be the one to cheer you up?

I seriously wanna a better relationship, if this one sided love then forget it.

you're stressed i am even more.

you think i think too much or hallucinate?

It's all the cause of you and you make me give up day-to-day.

It's difficult to pick up those sadness I gain.

Don't understand my english then it's definitely you don't give a minute concern about me.

always say you understand, you don't even understand my pain.

what for i try to get to you , when you ignore me every now and then?

MY heart is more fragile okay?

you will think that i only think from my side of view not yours.

i think from your side.

you dont give a concern about me and keep all things from me.

you wanna this kind of relationship , then i will give you mine.

i tell you the things from my heart, you just say so sweet.

every time same reply.

then ask you , what is my position in your heart. you send "huh"?

then nvm.

you think what am i ?

i serious gonna lose that particular feeling.

you're going to do that constantly, i am gonna give you a silent break or make you break.

you cry, won't change anything anymore.

you don't want to cherish me then don't ask for patch.

you get me then just put me aside, do you think that's fun?

you want play me, just tell me.

wanna hurt me then do it now.

i can't wait to end this pain within me from the start, i love you so much and this is how you treat me?

always when i am moody is because you you and you become moody then you win already.

i must always apologize to you, even though i am right.

a lot of people keep asking me to break up, but i didn't cause i love you.

you just don't bother about me!

i hate pet's love, i am not your ordinary friends!

2010-08-25T04:05:00.000-07:00

I have to improve my standard of English from today onwards, whether is it grammar or vocabulary , they are the key points I have to tackle .

I have to get earn myself a constant high grade for English, if not i might retain in secondary 4.

My languages are weak, there's must be something I could do to help myself.

I have to work as well as studying.

Friday, Saturday and Sunday are my working days, i need more time!

What will you do , if you are me?

I neglected my studies, my parents still think that I could cope will my studies.

I have no problems in other subjects currently, but languages!

For now i can't think of anything else, but studies.

No one will understand the urgency I am feeling.

Got to study.

bye?

2010-07-18T05:18:00.000-07:00

Humans are like this, when nothing happen they won't do anything about it .

When it's too late , they wanted a chance and regretted.

Hatred should be put as a challenge, so that your life would not fill with miserly of taking revenge.

Sometimes life doesn't makes sense , but entertainment make you wild.

sobering is good, so that you will think about a solution.

I might be young, but I am trying to think positively .

Personal opinion

2010-07-18T05:00:00.000-07:00

Why are there so much boundaries?

why people are so self-centered?

I am trying to break free from my condemnation , so that i wont be convicted.

I am sorry, just that many little little things making me moody.

Growing up really gives more stress and temptations.

I want to be innocent again!

I learnt many things from relationships.

I don't know why many people conclude that mother's love is the greatest?

Just that mothers know how to express love and concern, doesn't mean greatest.

If the relationship continues is always the guys resisting, except for those flirter's guys.

Girls frequently gets moody, cause their monthly menstrual cycle comes, but guys have to give in and win , by apologising to them. Or else quarrels will start if guys doesn't give in, which will end up with broken relationship.

If this world give ladies a chance to step up, why guys have to give in?

Making guys to be the tail instead of the head.

What I had noticed is girls always used their looks .

Don't want to say anymore. Please don't comment if you read this.

Thanks.

2010-06-15T02:53:00.001-07:00

난 당신을 사랑 단지 가끔은 아주 날 그것을 표현하는 어렵다
아웃.

그걸 알아.

2010-06-01T01:59:00.000-07:00

sometimes i might be throwing tantrums , but i hope all of you dont mind, cause i am always overwhelm with things.

therefore, i will bring my problems along to face another things.

lalalas.

thanks .

2010-05-27T02:22:00.000-07:00

why always like that?

i understand people, but they just dont understand me.

sighh

2010-04-02T19:34:00.000-07:00

bored !):

i want school everyday, without those annoying no guts penniless teachers):
pay them to get knowledge not others.

They cant even teach their children properly expect us to be a good student.
teachers , are role model, but they dont behave properly, yet no punishment ?

ridiculous right?

too bad, humans just take their title for granted, until one day .

2010-03-27T06:13:00.000-07:00

when i don't message = i dont reply anyone's message, unless it's important.

i had enough of everything.

sigh.
why must humans be so smart, which created so much disasters, even though it brings little comfort.

the moment it past, you will missed it .

trying to wake up.
sometimes, why did i just let it happened, when i know it's wrong?
it gives me sins.

i am waiting for the days i am going to work hard and spent 15-17 hours of my days in school, soon. Few more weeks to go(:
i think i should really give all my burden to the lord.

bye.

2010-03-20T23:32:00.000-07:00

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dead blog.

update!!?

shooo. shoo. my blog have nothing to see.

done.

march holiday, just found out my best days are my camp days:X
even though my team all childish, but we manage to bond as one, motivating each other with a common goal.

one girl look like me ex, look at her i recall about those memories.
another one, keep staring at me:X
my group leader:X

yeahhh;D
you look at this you cry:X
cry cry cry;D
sobsobsob.
celebrate food day:X?

2010-03-20T04:55:00.000-07:00

today is the one of the happiest day(:

first, i eat breakfast lunch dinner;D
from 11~ 4 ;D
now still eating.
i want eat eat~

so happy;D
cheer up okay?

laughs(:

2010-03-16T01:27:00.000-07:00

Just wondering, who still love me?
i want to destroy my com!:D
but cant.
hehe;D
tmr;D
a
day
without
my
work?
nah
.

PSB!:D

name pls?

2010-03-13T08:51:00.000-08:00

ilove my password. i miiss you.

i regret what i did.
if there's anotherchance

2010-03-12T02:30:00.000-08:00

Lalala;D

so bored, A1,A2,B3,B3,B4, C5,C6
for all my subjects(:

i am not happy with it)::
i love to be scolded!!;D

Today is a long day;D
hardworking?
nope, crazy;D

Faith resolve problems and evolve you to the next level , nuturing you ;D
lovelovelove?
kidding :X

I am still young to be attach;D
dont blame me if i fall in love with my books:X

byebye;D
hope , i will start a new fresh with good remarks coming soon;D

2010-03-05T20:35:00.000-08:00

I'm so glad that i leave all the girls in my life(:
Now they're much happier without me(:
Seeing them happier and anti- emo is what I had been waiting for(:
I dont need any benefits , i just want people to be living happily(:

Hopes for changes had been done.
I am tired of changing more people, I guess now i have to focus on studies.

all alone(:
hope all the girls I changed they will live happily without suicidal thoughts and last long in relationship;D

Be alert in a relationship(:

2010-01-27T03:23:00.000-08:00

I guess i am a guy , who doesn't like to share.
maybe of jealousy, nvm.
if anyone like you, i will just push you to the guy, i won't do anything.

i will just let go.

I guess i just like anti-social girls;D
too bad;D

girls are as mature as boys.

girls enviroment are better than guys, that's why they wont watch porn or play games till addictive.

girls always influence each other to be good, but boys just dont.

but i am sure that, both genders are in the same level.

heh;D

ILOVEMYSELF!
PORN SUCK TO THE CORE.
TEMPTATION TOO!

boo!

BLog deadX.x

bye~

2010-01-21T01:04:00.000-08:00

want scold me, scold directly.

2010-01-16T05:49:00.000-08:00

hehe;D

kill me;D

115kg is soft, silky, smooth , smelly, sticky and sucky:X

2010-01-15T05:45:00.001-08:00

wonder you have how many steads.

2010-01-15T04:43:00.000-08:00

Who do you really love?

2010-01-14T19:11:00.000-08:00

i guess it's too bad.

Lies, lies and lies.

you just think that i don't know anything.

what's the point of this .

i'm not an idiot, i have brains.

hehe;D

guessing doing what's best , couldn't help.
just hope that i will do what i have to do and get what i want to achieve.
I really don't wish any relationship's problems to occur again, my studies is stress enough, i can't handle it , criteria for going sec 5 , is like 19 points. everyday, learning new topics, hard to catch up.

You just don't understand , my situations.
sometimes i just feel like giving up everything, but i can't .
so far i have achieve so much, i can't just give up like this.

I need motivations!!

buh-bye.

2010-01-13T06:52:00.000-08:00

love is difficult, I think I just can't take all this. my heart is slowly going to the world, I won't let it happen. if you love me, you won't make me upset.

I only want to love, is there anything so hard?

2010-01-07T07:31:00.000-08:00

i think i gonna share my love, what's the point loving a person mainly and ending up my faults and misery in your heart?

2010-01-04T00:11:00.000-08:00

:X not clear!!!

go my friendster to see:X

;DDDDD

2010-01-03T18:11:00.000-08:00

sigh. today 1st day of school and get send home, because hair too long:X

;D

guess they cant live on with long hair, what's wrong with having hair?

lol;D

bored.

later still have to return to school and take back my confiscated phone.

sorry, for those unreply messages):

sob)::

miss so many lessons.

2009-12-15T18:42:00.000-08:00

Sometimes people just dont get it, cause they just dont cant listen to you when they dislike you.

Bored!

yijing, you hate me, but you still dont know where's the problems.
and why everything occur.

nvm
forget it;D!

2009-12-13T18:07:00.001-08:00

Thanks for those who dislike me;D

2009-12-07T17:41:00.000-08:00

Life is full of situations, the more you are unwilling, the more likely things will happen.

Things won't always go right, everything changes when you make any mistakes in your life.

no one can help in this world, but the guidance of the Lord , will lead you and watch over every steps you're taking.

sometimes, unreasonable things happened, you just have to learn it.
prevent it from occuring anymore.
days won't stop, until that days you're taken away.
life is short, no one can do anything to reverse the past back.

Please vote;D!!
thanks;D

Obviously i am not shuai;D

trying all the ways ;D

2009-12-06T18:29:00.000-08:00

2009-12-02T17:37:00.000-08:00

It's all misunderstanding, before i go out, i told you i am going out with another girl.

If you dont trust then dont trust.

i said the truth, you dont believe, i say lie you also dont believe.

i really went to study!!
i really went to find her wallet!

nvm, since you just dont believe i cant do anything about it.

If you are me, what will do?

I hate myself.

hate me too!

what's wrong with studying?
all my friends are girls.

Sins..my fault.

yesterday cried 12~1.
i am pathetic.

2009-11-30T17:09:00.000-08:00

hate is person?

2009-11-27T18:43:00.000-08:00

Trust ?

is it hard to believe me?
questions , questions.

but there's never a perfect answer.
there's similarity and differences.

2009-11-09T17:11:00.000-08:00

phone suck:X can move picture to storage card.

2009-10-27T06:42:00.000-07:00

sometimes i want to concern about you, but i cant. i scared

2009-10-19T23:59:00.000-07:00

dead.

heeeeeeeeeeeeeee. you get fooled by me

2009-10-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

sigh. whats wrong?

maybe its time for changes,since i cant change people, i have to change myself.

2009-10-17T03:40:00.000-07:00

sigh. can anyone tell me what happen ? ii am bored .

2009-10-09T01:01:00.000-07:00

what's wrong with me.?

the fault is on the boy not her.
if noone can give her a chance then her life will be much worse than before.
am i doing the right thing?
is this love a lie?
i dont feel annything, why ?

sigh.

why must it always happen on me?

am i making a big mistake?

will it be a disastrous choice?

so many questions, yet none of them will be answer.

should i carry on ?
just wondered how many times you lied to me.
is it possible for me to let myself into it?

i think after exam then solve it ba.

2009-10-08T02:54:00.001-07:00

just tell me you hate me that's all i need.

2009-09-15T06:48:00.000-07:00

sometimes, the things yoou wanna get just not there.

I want alot of things, the more i think the more i cant acheive any of them.
why am i giving up that easily, i was not good now better.

living with circumtances really make us facing difficulties, we often get the easy way out and ended up facing major consequences.

I want to be with you, but sometimes i just could'nt afford it.
i am stress till lazy, what's the matter with me nowadays.?

feel like doing silly things, but i cant!

living is full of problems and solutions.

2009-09-05T19:22:00.000-07:00

I am totally confused when one is proven and the other make me change the perspective of someone. My tust really gonna vanish, I always conclude things immediately, i really had enough and i am not entering it anymore deeply.

I dont want my grades to be affected because of my emotions, which make me think hell of of the world. Nothing is suitable for me, but i have lots of choices and i always thought taking the imperfect will make me happy. As long as i know, they just the same as normal and have the same thoughts.

I have to be blame for the silly choices that had been made from 12 till now, i am so foolish to believe myself. After this i am gonna giving it up, i dont want my nights to be sleepless and not stunning for perfection.

I am different from others, i experience everything earlier and i am old for now!
nvm. i am just silly to update this blog when i am tired, i go do my project.
Hope things will change!

2009-09-04T01:56:00.000-07:00

sad! Not top few in class):

english: 50
chinese: 35
Additional mathematics: 78
mathematics(syllabus A): 66
science(phy,chem): 79
combined humanities(S, G): 67
Principles of A/C: 61

sigh... deprove in poa, humanities, chinese.

2009-09-01T00:43:00.000-07:00

Love cannot be substitute.

Yesterday, i made myself prepare for the worst to come in order to overcome hurts and negative thought overwhelming me . I got a bite, but force to get it.

Today, one whole day moody, walk under the rain alone and mind was deep in thought of solutions. I cant do anything to stop future, i just have to face it and overcome all the circumstances . Nobody understands me, but i understand myself.

Guess i guess didnt sleep much, therefore mind tune down . Nothing can be stop, but can be prevent if one is willing to do so. Everyone face problems through their life, but noone appreciates what changes their lives.

Dont really understand love, i finally know why love is undescibable

2009-08-21T20:24:00.000-07:00

I know its difficult, with so many temptation around. people will rather choose temptaion choices then waiting for the period of time.

2009-08-07T21:15:00.000-07:00

Every one need changes in life, i know i am quite a jerk sometimes, sorry about all the words i used, i just could'nt stop my mouth from doing it so.

Yesterday, went to library to meet a friend to help her in studies then all the flashback.
lol. it's really alot of memories, why just i forget about them.

(: trying to be better the very moment to be cheerful, making it so i must think positively through out the period of time.

2009-08-04T00:03:00.000-07:00

On sunday,

I am so embarrassing, before everything had go on pace, it's morning i have an arguement between me and second brother, as he always purposely want to make parents angry..he was so happy and i was moody.

after the service at church , everyone come to question me and help to cheer me up, instead i cried. i didnt even know what make me cry, i guess just that i cant take my brother anymore.
One guy he commented on me, but is actually on my 2nd brother, i had people to accused my own character and attitude.

i lost every opportunity , because of my second brother and he still haven change.
He treat everything for granted, he said we ill-treated him and that's wrong.
He's a person who lies everyday of his life, because of Alicia .
He think he threaten us to die, it possible, my family already had enough.

He said my parents give him less poket money, but actually is the same as my eldest brother. he want to leave the house to stay over night at chalet, he said i ask him not to go home.
Truth will be shown, through time.

I had given up on caring about him, its a waste of my love .

its only a little detail, dont want anyone to know more(:

love is powerful to me(:

2009-07-31T22:35:00.000-07:00

sigh.. have 2 chinese composition to do, geography and many more. need to do finish all by today.

tomorrow have to revise everything all over from start.

hope someone can study with me, excluding family members.

2009-07-30T02:26:00.000-07:00

sorry. I know sometimes i didn't have the time you accompany you, that's my fault . It's hard to take some schedule out for you, you know your everything to me and i can't let you go, but hugging you tightly.

I am currently can't focus and cope with my studies , from today onwards i try to study 4 hours a day if possible .

Today its really embarrassing in class, i pronounce wrong words , add words and with pauses . i have so nervous:X

Everything haven to be overcome, even though its a small mistake , but don't make it worse(:

i only can confess my mistakes and willing to ask for forgiveness , learning from mistakes is better then learning all over again.
Now i need a deep change , not temporary one.

2009-07-18T00:39:00.000-07:00

i bloody hate alicia chua!

she make my family have no peace, she control my brother and make us have no peace

2009-07-17T02:18:00.000-07:00

There's quite a number of disasters in life , but we must stand firmly not making ourselves weaker and strive to success.

Giving yourself negative thoughts and mood changes , doesnt really help to solve anything accept being weaker. Life is like any non-constant graph , so giving up is not the best solution of all.

Giving yourself excuses only making you/ me to get into the same situation repeatedly and as though like a bondage in your life. Dont get upset whenever there's an tremendous impact , think of a way to change it and prevent it from happening. No one likes to live in a life without happiness, because you yourself know that you can be change, but you just dont know how.

The problem of us being unhappy is that , we must not get into any condemnation and do what must be done to change your life.

That's enough for today, rest time.
byee.
thanks for viewing my blog, as this is my judgement of life.
DInner!! here i come:X

2009-07-13T23:53:00.000-07:00

there's lots of challengers and everyone of them having their own motive and maybe you're next to be knock out.

sometimes i just cant do it, i just dont want people to get hurt and yet being hurt.
its though to live on with so many circumtances all over you and not everyone of them you can resolve the problems that had been created.

It often lead to a mess of making more torubles for ourselves, i am trying to walk the right path without being affected by the power of influence.

Is there any solution to make myself happier, instead of making myself crazy>?

i go bath, special things should not be share, cause if its shared terrible things will happen.

byees(:

2009-07-13T02:16:00.000-07:00

today is actually a boring long day, but fortunately i complete my homework on time and didnt get to stay back till 5pm:X

my teacher is strict even though she's pregnant, she look strict when she's kind:X
many people dislike her, but i like the way she express herself, make me get motivated in studies and give lots of examples and thoeries:X

bored. bored all the way!!:X

desperately need refreshment:X
i am glad that i called her and without any entertainment through her, i am refresh again and have the energy to study and do lots of stuff again(:

hope my everyday will be this beautiful(:
i really appreciate for the time we spent together(:

thanks dar:X
you always brighten up my day, i sounded so silly on the phone:X
really weird:X

buh-bye all(:

life changes all the time, never ending waves(:

2009-07-11T05:36:00.000-07:00

i am not anti-social, i found the real reason why i dont like to talk much:X
cause i only like to talk serious stuff , but not silly, nonsense stuff.
i dont want to get influence to be like one of them, so thick skin.

acpuncture for half a year, its really a test of patience , i dont mine being quite.

i have my own reasons for doing everything, sorry if i neglect helping anyone.

rest time, i want to post a long one, but my brother is here.

nvm(:
there's still next time.

Adultery is a sin and is part of temptation, everyone can resist, temptation is from satan.
i have life, unlike my brother:X
his life is girlfriend, game, talk on phone and go out.
is that the reall purpose of life.?
definitely not!

2009-07-07T03:41:00.000-07:00

someone ever tried to reveal me:X

i look alone at anywhere, because i have my own thoughts on it.
is not i anti-social, i dare to speak up, but i just dont want to be influence anyhow:X

2009-07-05T18:00:00.000-07:00

Life is not special, but facing stress every single day.

hand still haven recover yet, still pain:X

sometimes i just not hear what people said and end up facing consequences myself.

dont know why nowadays keep on sneezing.

sometimes friends and better in some ways, but you dont know their motives.

Dont read this:

nothing special, i go bath and prepare for tuition(:

2009-07-03T03:07:00.000-07:00

Today actually is quite a happy day for me, but after my friend it my ear, my hearing for the right ear become weird.

i hope can recover by today without going to clinic, because if i go check up and there's any problem with my ear, my Dad is going to complain .

sigh..

always small things lead to great consequences, this sentence always happen in life, but people just dont believe it.

I want to study.

i think my youth day would be a disaster, but must think positive and let the bygone be bygone(:

In order to live happily(:

my ear is consider better than eddison:X

I am so fortunate(:
should not grumble anymore!!(:

2009-06-19T21:46:00.000-07:00

It's kinda weird.

no chance given anymore:X

bleahs.

!!

2009-06-19T02:01:00.000-07:00

I dont like to reLINK!

if you dont want a friend like me just change link, because i wont link you!

you think I have nothing better to do uh?

relink Me this word!

you are asking people relink you, its because you want people's attention~

attention seeker:P

2009-06-19T01:58:00.000-07:00

why i dont have the guts to do it again?

maybe i need confirmation, hurts does more hatred than love.

CAMP):

sigh... haven do finish homework , i am a terrible student.

still can get 3rd in class, how fortunate this time only.

next time it wont be that easy, many people just wake up from their dreamland:X

2009-06-01T17:36:00.000-07:00

It's will be a change , certainly someone will be unwillingly to change and , therefore times we have to learn a threatening lesson.

Somethings shouldn't be done, but you just do it without know the consequences.
Those people who are so proud of and no bother about anything , have cynical views of people who are much more well off than them.

Reality stuff really make me comepletely bewilder, expecially for those misunderstanding in my life are too perplex to think of.

The moment we are giving up, is when we have to gain tenacity in ourselves.

Comments can be very pernicious effect on us, as we try to make a perfection out of ourselves, even though we are weak.

Only the one who are continously conscientious will benefit , because they are the ones who are interested to pay the price of it.

Remind ourselves, this is a competing and comparative world, we should nt take unnecessary comments from others as they will make you undermine and overtake your position and not doing pernickety things.

sorry, to those that i didnt apologise to them if i really make any mistakes along the way and without notice hurt all of you . Please forgive me as i dont want hatred between any of us. friends are better than enemies(:

2009-05-26T05:01:00.000-07:00

Love is not something which can be an excitement or game, but about responsibility in ourselves. You may not agree with me, because different people have different kind of views about it.

2009-05-12T21:39:00.000-07:00

o.o this blog is terrible!!!!

dont blame me:X

(blog admin)

2009-03-01T03:51:00.000-08:00

The months with her really, make me thought its a real relationship, but as we go on lots of things. and the midst of this february everything break down.

Its kind of intensive, as always keep it inside and dont want others to know how i feel, because i dont want others to be unhappy and moody .

i was emotionally broken down, its really hurts and both of us knew what had happened. i tried my best not to let it out, but its out of my control , i cant do anything else but to torture myself with pains.

i dont want to be like this , but it cant be held.
she dont want to let bygone be bygone , thats why we cant move on and moody keeps on haunting us up.

byeee.
guess its the end.

2009-02-05T03:46:00.000-08:00

days with my wounds real suck:x

2009-02-01T21:45:00.000-08:00

some of the wounds):

2009-02-01T21:18:00.000-08:00

sigh.. chinese new year is not celebrating , whereas suffering and torture comes. my both knees , both hands, shoulder, elbow, palm are injuried. A total of 9 wounds, even typing this post , i have difficulties to do it.

just hope that will recover soon, cause tests are around the corners, hope can write again.

its hard to overcome is pain and sickness as well.

2009-01-13T05:03:00.000-08:00

i dont want leave..... i dont want, but i have to do what i must , to be what i want to be.

i am going for camp to malaysia from 14~16 january.
missing all.

its all me.
;D blame me for everyone:D
hehe(:

i am getting ugly ,awful weird lately.

you promised, but you never do it.
should'nt be such a native boy boy.

life is not part of enjoy, is reasons.
you need to sacrifice for everthing.
dont like it):

i want to....
wish...
never mind.
it will be gone.

will be back for you , hope time will get you back to me.

need to study for 3 years straight, i cant rest anymore.
its wha i gonna do, to show you that i can do everything , without your temptation.
always admire someone, gotta go.

weirdly, recently get calls by my ex 's friends for whether i like another girl anot, its completely strange.
the world is changing to a worser place of living.
cant believe what Bible written thousand of years ago is happening in our lives.

byeeee(:

2009-01-07T05:33:00.000-08:00

i want to go heaven , so that wont be so stress:X
btw. 14 ~ 16 jan going to Msia for camping at kahang rice farm:X
one of the biggest rice farms they said:X

toilet no doors one, go there i will get rape ):
girl's one got doorrsss.
eee. so unfair .
boys no need privacy meh.?

i end here.

2008-12-25T08:11:00.000-08:00

Christmas day is the celebration of the birth of Jesus christ, you will know him as your Lord and saviour.

2008-12-21T20:17:00.000-08:00

cant believe it:X
movies:X
flooded me with lots of stuff:X

ohhh.no
rehearsing again and again:X
its quite fun:X
do silly stufff.

seriously now life is not simple:X

changes are always make .
byeeeee(:

wont blog often.
cause dont know what to write:X

2008-12-12T08:51:00.001-08:00

this suck:X

com got virus and now downloading everything back:X
tiring

2008-12-07T08:17:00.000-08:00

Every girl said every boy cannot be trusted , but they didnt think about how boys thinks.
all they care is themselves most of the times.
faithful guy always do get hurt but didnt complain or get frustrated over it, but guys just want you (girl) to understand it by urself.

Give you time.
but you didnt even care about any incident.
so what could i say.?
maybe u disagree.
whatever things i have written are the facts, true anot is ur decision.

comment on me " Experience Emo amatuer"
:X

getting lame.
i dont suit to have that name:X

2008-12-06T06:03:00.000-08:00

i actually movie so many movie in 2 weeks:X
cant believe it:X
its like almost all accept those underage one:X

bleahx.
can you tell me the reason why i feel so cold.?

i guess no one understand it(:

2008-11-25T19:29:00.000-08:00

The reason why i emo-ed is because of something, someone, being annoy , being insult, and everything which i kept in my memories and i want to get rid of everything which make me cleanse my memory.

dont stop me ,but i know what i am dont all along.
tried, promised, but still break promises.
empty.
enclose.
tears.
anger.
stabs nt given .
wantmore hurts.

2008-11-24T07:54:00.000-08:00

i dont like to be shy, when i am shy i look and my actions are stubborn:X
next year i must take lots of desperate measures, to go on to the top.
dont think anyone can stop me accept myself, agrrh.

altitude ,multitude,

nonsense me.

lazy to post long posts:X

cause too much information ==== (boring) --- seee till yawn:X

2008-11-18T18:57:00.000-08:00

I always wanted to do something, but every time i tried i get rejected by my thoughts.. cause i kept on thinking in the negative way.

words i used will not be appreciated by myself, cause words is just words and all i want is actions.
visualisation rocks on , but i don't know how to use it:X

its hard to get people to be impress , but is easy to admire or compliment.

nothing much to say or lots more to be done.

that one sentence is hard to split it up.

~
dont want to continue , but it just the reality .
cant do anything about it , but can change and make a difference within days .
but i chose to do nothing about it

2008-11-15T05:49:00.000-08:00

Every move I did today was totally wrong.
its so terrible~

i went out with friends after attending to school's open house and play around at the playground.
Guess what.?
i knock onto the monkeybar and get a irritating obvious scar on my nose with buise.

ugrhh..
nvm the following days will be better, i guess so(:

i dont type everything happened today, but some major events:X
so ppl read wont feel boring:X
too long means not exciting , just extract out the main points:X

okay. byes.

2008-11-13T02:40:00.000-08:00

regret on being ...nvm.

it cant be undone.
but it can be resolve):
hate it.
dont come to me):
only problems(:
sickening you(:
shoooo):

Crazy for unexpected girl.

nt suppose to be ....
cant be it, it is just to simple .

U suck in me, you dont know what i mean.
cause u wont regret knowing it):

2008-11-08T22:32:00.000-08:00

Dont guess a girl's mind , because you can often get it wrong..if u guess till a conclusion , you may regret taking the first step forward. girls can always guess whats on ur mind if you are a native guy and all sorts.

To prevent girls from suspecting , guessing something about you.. you should tend to make her confuse , if you dont she will conclude in a negative way.

trusting a person is the only thing to escape negative thoughts, if you think too positive you will also end up hurting yourself more .

only girls can attract attention, but not guys , if not girls will find it annoying or even irritating and will not bother about you , even though your actually expressing ur love towards her.

suicide is not always the solution towards all problems, because who knows if u didnt suicide u will benefit from ur mistakes or even get something better to achieve and aim for a high goal.

imagination sometimes can be realistic and come true whenn you totally forgotten it, predicting is not that is , as yo can get 2 answers.

suffocating with a deep breathe , noone will spare you a hand if you dont try ur best.

thats all i can say.

bleahs .
dont destroy hopes , but help others in their dreams.
sucess is easy to achieve, is depends on how u endure and how persistent you are.
dont give up wasily on anything even though you have the result.

<3>
Dont give up, your love one will be there for u , if u dare to ask(:

byes:X

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2008-11-07T23:33:00.000-08:00

dont spare any thoughts if you like someone, dont wait .
sometimes just have to express it out:X

sigh~
nothing to do~

try better than miss a chance.
i want study, i want school.
heh.

i want act childish and mature.

filled ur thoughts with the one, spare sometime and he/she will be urs.
bleahx.

stupid posts.

2008-11-02T18:15:00.000-08:00

Won't you be in my heart , there 's many times i tried to be the one.
But i just could'nt stand up for myself and you, there's a difference i make , if could stand again.
Face up with challenges , nothing compare to you is the problems deep inside my head.

can't you send a message , telling me solutions for it.?
its all sorry late , for changes to be make and just cant leave behind):
thats the consequences for i dont make the first move as a gentleman):
But you dont leave behind any clues for me , so i just had to try every ways to get you back in my heart.
i will stop running away from reality, that day would come for my dissappearance.

The deep breathe i take , it just all waste and i cant make it true again.
will you give me another chance, for i explain you my mistakes.
Sob...sob..
you just keep rejecting my reasons and i know on that day , i am just a failure for this.

farewell.
dont be a favourable kid.
byes.

2008-10-29T19:41:00.000-07:00

things that i want is priceless , nobody will ever give me it):

their mind is so simple):

heh(:
got evil plans for my B day
hope it will be a sucessful one(:

You're the one that will never replace from my heart, i told you this before and if you forgotten it .
its simply unexplainable, torubles in life makes me suck(:

dont wanto to change the sentence of my life, but the story line of my life.

shut it , heh.

siaosiao.

2008-10-23T17:52:00.000-07:00

The worse is yet to come(:

i know that my standard is not that low, i will make it higher the next round.

more effort must be put in ,nothing would have gone wrong without **

Pissed already , can i dont add new posts.?
i want to read only.

2008-10-23T04:33:00.000-07:00

In love with you is not my only choice,today played 5 bowling games.
hehe(:

East coast Park bowling lame very suck.
regretted accompanying that *jie* , made me cant meet so many ppl.

"i loveyou" is nt enough to express love..
somethings just have to be mistaken.

heartbroken without reasons.
that girl was admired by me:X

dont think too much, cause i am reffering to you(:

2008-10-22T07:32:00.001-07:00

nth to add .sry

2008-10-11T23:24:00.000-07:00

dont know what to post lehs.

lol.
posting is like talking to myself:X

2008-10-01T05:24:00.000-07:00

so boredd..
cant study this days..

4 more subjects to go:D

understanding minds , oppsites directions makes no sense.
yeah~
i am becoming a total different person..
i like panda eye..and pimples..
weird imagination .

i am wasting my time..could have study for exams..

heh(:

always EOY exams confirm border line one...
i know why..and it wont change..
till the day i am awake.

2008-09-23T05:46:00.000-07:00

Emotional bleeding:X

heh(:

why u change urself to suit the enviroment.?
now ur character sux.
grumble abt it for quite awhile.

how foolish i am:D

u made me conclude abt something...
that opportunity is taken away..BLank mind mind:X

jys all for exams

2008-09-20T19:52:00.000-07:00

i dont bother already, i will definitely wont be that silly anymore.
okay...
making it a differe nce in mylife.

nothing will change mymind about you.

and its you whom doesnt want it, so neither do i .
it wont hurt anymore, because i found out the truth and the mistake i had make will nt be replace.
my life wont be miserable without ur soul , my life will be much more better.

nth is much simpler then giving up , something giving up is a better choice make.
the sudden realise made me understood the fact of the world, thats why this world doesnt have any peace.
we are created things, but nt durable things .

theres always something blocking me from expressing and doing what i suppose to do and what i dont need to do , it made me do .
without any reason to recognise , why i being like this all this while.
it makes me feel terrible , altough i did nth wrong about it.

2008-09-20T03:33:00.000-07:00

done.its time,forgetting u from today on forwards.